Bereavement is a strange creature and it takes whatever shape it needs to capture your attention.
The way out is not to "fight" but to sit and acknowledge its presence. It does not need to be fought or fed or "treated" or medicated away. What it asks is to be acknowledged.
Repeatedly, respectfully recognize the reality of the images and feelings that come up in dreams (and in the waking hours). Sit with them routinely until their story has been heard.
There is no need to judge yourself or others. There is no need to question the validity of the thoughts, memories, and feelings that bubble up from parts unknown.
To judge implies that maybe persons and events could have been "right" or "better". Things just are the way they are. We are just the way we are. As far as the things we have done or not done--what about it?--all we have is the present. To be drawn into the quicksand of the "what ifs" has no value.
How long will it take? This will take all the time it needs. When these memories, images and feelings have been "heard" --and they may need "hearing" over and over--then they will quiet down on their own. You may be surprised to find yourself smiling and thankful for everything -- the pain and loss included.
The fruit of being patient with the suffering you endure will be beyond your expectation. That fruit is compassion.
Dr. Thomas Cuyegkeng
Dr. Thomas Cuyegkeng
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